By Margot | May 24, 2012
We are wrapping up the school year. I can’t believe it. I put Charlie’s graduation from kindergarten on the calendar this morning and was thinkings of Sam’s. It was during his brief remission when we thought he was finished with treatment. I remember exactly what he wore and how cute he was. I remember crying through the awards ceremony that preceded it thinking of all he’d been through. I can’t believe it’s Baby Charlie’s turn. He is so not a baby anymore. He’s so cool and funny and smart. He sailed through his K/1 combo class and did a lot of the first grade stuff so we’re hoping we get a first grade teacher that will advance him along.
We have been ridiculously overscheduled this spring. The boys were both on the same flag football team because we pretended Charlie was seven and they had an Andrew quarterback/Charlie receiver touchdown that was awesome. Andrew also played spring basketball, soccer and baseball and it was crazy. Charlie was doing tball, soccer and football We had a coach unhappy with us at all times for missing games for other games. Both boys are going to take the summer off from basketball and Andrew will do baseball and soccer which is more reasonable. He’s pitching in baseball now and loves it. Baseball is inching up in the favorite sport category. His team is currently in the playoffs and they won last night by one run in the last inning with two outs, two strikes on the batter and the boy on thrid stole home. The stands were going beserk. I’m a nervous wreck for Andrew when he pitches, I can hardly sit still. Mostly I just pace around and try to yell helpful things. Neil is one of the coaches. I was in helping keep score last week and Neil had to leave a little early and my co-scorekeeper said, it’s eerily quiet without your husband out there. You’ll have to tell him I missed him.” Charlie boy plays four square with a gang of guys his age during the games. It’s pretty cute watching them all together. Sometimes Charlie walks with that Sam swagger.
Charlie is playing the piano and he brought his new piano book to school for sharing today. He loves it. Andrew is playing guitar and just starting to get into it but not much of a practicer. They are planning a band with their friend Jake on the drums. They are growing up so fast. Andrew will be in fourth grade next year. Again, I think of Sam wrapping up his third grade year. He was so happy to be able to finish off the year with his friends. It was before everything exploded but boy did he have a good spring.
Neil and I are trying to slow things down a bit this summer so that we are not so crazy busy that it goes by too fast. I say that and plan that and then of course Neil says I keep signing up for things. We are still broken. I would say less broken but there are times when we are as broken as ever so less broken is not that accurate. It’s hard to explain – maybe those times are a bit fewer though. I try only be broken in private. I spoke to a mom in the hospital last week who is about to lose her sweet son, Connor, and I just hurt so much for her. I’ve been thinking about her and Connor so much this week.
Coincidentally, I read a book that I downloaded on a whim on my kindle this week called This is How…. by Augesten Burrows. It was recommended and it was him giving life advice and he actually had a section on “How to Lose a Child” and I swear I was so angy after reading it that I would probably spit at him if I saw him. He of course has never lost a child but that didn’t stop him from giving advice on it that didn’t seem to be backed up by anything in particular but his own opinion. Dope. Anyway, sorry I got off on that tangent.
Charlie and Andrew are taking us to their open house tonight and they are guiding it, showing us what they’ve been doing in school. So I’m looking forward to that. Last week was their spring music show and they were both reluctant to go but sang so well. We found out from the dentist this week that Andrew will have some serious orthodonture in his future but we’ll wait a while for a few more teeth to come in. Will post pictures soon.
That’s about what I can think of for now. We are thinking of all of our warrior friends especially Jack Bartoz, who is now on nifurtimox, Hans Weberling (Lara your comment inspired me to update at long last) and sweet Connor.