Comments on: Numb and Fun http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/ Just another WordPress weblog Sun, 20 May 2012 04:45:23 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 By: Laurie & Robert http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/comment-page-1/#comment-28695 Laurie & Robert Sun, 04 Apr 2010 20:05:50 +0000 http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/#comment-28695 Nobody telling you that there was nothing you could have done differently will sink in, but eventually you will see that you did everything you could - so much more than most parents would or could have. Most people - and I know others who've faced this - trust in the doctors they have, and take the traditional/accepted medical route, and when that fails, just brace for the end. You moved heaven and earth for Sam, and made saving him your sole mission for a very, very long time. If there was any way to keep him with you, you would have found it. There simply wasn't anything to be done. I wish you peace on this issue above all and hope that you know that when a cure IS found, the work you did to test and try and uncover so many options will have played a role in that, and other lives will be spared because of it. Nobody telling you that there was nothing you could have done differently will sink in, but eventually you will see that you did everything you could – so much more than most parents would or could have. Most people – and I know others who’ve faced this – trust in the doctors they have, and take the traditional/accepted medical route, and when that fails, just brace for the end. You moved heaven and earth for Sam, and made saving him your sole mission for a very, very long time. If there was any way to keep him with you, you would have found it. There simply wasn’t anything to be done. I wish you peace on this issue above all and hope that you know that when a cure IS found, the work you did to test and try and uncover so many options will have played a role in that, and other lives will be spared because of it.

]]> By: Maria Diaz http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/comment-page-1/#comment-28603 Maria Diaz Thu, 01 Apr 2010 04:53:52 +0000 http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/#comment-28603 Neil - nothing more you could have done, you are amazing. Sam is visiting you all, in different ways and times. Sam continues to be your angel, what a beautiful gift. Neil – nothing more you could have done, you are amazing. Sam is visiting you all, in different ways and times. Sam continues to be your angel, what a beautiful gift.

]]> By: Mindy Kinser http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/comment-page-1/#comment-28573 Mindy Kinser Thu, 01 Apr 2010 00:33:02 +0000 http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/#comment-28573 Neil, No one could have done more - know that in your heart. I think of you, Margot, and the boys every day and wish that I could be there on Saturday. Sam will never be more than prayer away. My love to all, Mindy Neil,
No one could have done more – know that in your heart. I think of you, Margot, and the boys every day and wish that I could be there on Saturday. Sam will never be more than prayer away.
My love to all,
Mindy

]]> By: Ellen Hanson http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/comment-page-1/#comment-28457 Ellen Hanson Wed, 31 Mar 2010 09:01:33 +0000 http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/#comment-28457 Hey Neil, Numb is good! I really feel that it is a gift that helps you cope. Stay there as long as you can.. You did everything possible for Sam! Everything! And you continued to play and have fun with your family all they way through. You and Sam and your family, have also helped countless other families in this fight in so very many ways. I'm glad you are having "Sam" moments. That is so cool. I'm thinking of you and praying for Peace and Comfort for all of you. God Bless you, Love, Ellen http://www.caringbridge.org/ma/seanhanson Hey Neil, Numb is good! I really feel that it is a gift that helps you cope. Stay there as long as you can.. You did everything possible for Sam! Everything! And you continued to play and have fun with your family all they way through. You and Sam and your family, have also helped countless other families in this fight in so very many ways. I’m glad you are having “Sam” moments. That is so cool. I’m thinking of you and praying for Peace and Comfort for all of you. God Bless you, Love, Ellen
http://www.caringbridge.org/ma/seanhanson

]]> By: Marcia http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/comment-page-1/#comment-28389 Marcia Wed, 31 Mar 2010 01:01:48 +0000 http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/#comment-28389 Oh My Gosh. One more story that gives me the chills and makes me believe he's still with us we just can't see him. Thank you for sharing the story. I was at a spiritual retreat today that talked about how in Israel some people can see a temple that is no longer there. These are people who are very well respected and righteous spiritual leaders. They say when you see with your "spiritual eyes" and not your "physical eyes" you see things that are not visible to the majority of people on earth. Oh My Gosh. One more story that gives me the chills and makes me believe he’s still with us we just can’t see him. Thank you for sharing the story. I was at a spiritual retreat today that talked about how in Israel some people can see a temple that is no longer there. These are people who are very well respected and righteous spiritual leaders. They say when you see with your “spiritual eyes” and not your “physical eyes” you see things that are not visible to the majority of people on earth.

]]> By: Pam Hutchison Lafferty http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/comment-page-1/#comment-28374 Pam Hutchison Lafferty Tue, 30 Mar 2010 22:55:09 +0000 http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/#comment-28374 Neil, I wanted to say something that would reassure you that you had done everything you could (and then some), but your wise brother Tom said it all. Those of us who watched what you and Margot did for Sam stand in awe of the power of your love for him. You left no stone unturned. Believe that. Thinking of you and your family with love and prayers. Have a wonderful celebration on Saturday. Pam Neil,
I wanted to say something that would reassure you that you had done everything you could (and then some), but your wise brother Tom said it all. Those of us who watched what you and Margot did for Sam stand in awe of the power of your love for him. You left no stone unturned. Believe that.
Thinking of you and your family with love and prayers. Have a wonderful celebration on Saturday.

Pam

]]> By: tom hutch http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/comment-page-1/#comment-28123 tom hutch Mon, 29 Mar 2010 13:54:26 +0000 http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/#comment-28123 Redman- Sam has visited you in so many ways-here we have the boy helping Charlie up the slide..the boy named Sam. Seems to me that Sam is letting you know that he is in a good place, a far better place than our world, and he wants you to know it- Sitting back here I think of how many Sam's I know - I dont know any Sam's (except your Sam) and so it reinforces my firm belief that the frequent Sam transactions are your Sam-telling you that he is ok. The whole world knows that you fought the most knowledge based fight against this evil cancer-when cancer came to your front door, knocked it down and went for Sam you fought so damn hard and so smart-every choice weighed against another option-fighting for good care-fighting for new options-funding for Sam and others-taking experimental drugs with Sam so you could evaluate the effect on Sam better-crossing the globe for options-you left no stone unturned. We understand everything in hindsight but must play our life forward; Sam is looking down on his brothers and mom and you and telling you that he is ok, that you need to Get In The Game-this is what Sam would want for you-to do what he most missed-being in the Game. Get In The Game and live life forward, don't dwell on yesterday-be confident that you and Sam and Margot will one day be re-united with Sam in a place where cancer has no footing. Sam loves you with all of his heart and he wants you in The Game. Bask in his wry smile and know that his wisdom is with Marg's, Andy and Charlie and be sure to take a good dose of it yourself. I love you. Redman-

Sam has visited you in so many ways-here we have the boy helping Charlie up the slide..the boy named Sam. Seems to me that Sam is letting you know that he is in a good place, a far better place than our world, and he wants you to know it-

Sitting back here I think of how many Sam’s I know – I dont know any Sam’s (except your Sam) and so it reinforces my firm belief that the frequent Sam transactions are your Sam-telling you that he is ok.

The whole world knows that you fought the most knowledge based fight against this evil cancer-when cancer came to your front door, knocked it down and went for Sam you fought so damn hard and so smart-every choice weighed against another option-fighting for good care-fighting for new options-funding for Sam and others-taking experimental drugs with Sam so you could evaluate the effect on Sam better-crossing the globe for options-you left no stone unturned.

We understand everything in hindsight but must play our life forward; Sam is looking down on his brothers and mom and you and telling you that he is ok, that you need to Get In The Game-this is what Sam would want for you-to do what he most missed-being in the Game. Get In The Game and live life forward, don’t dwell on yesterday-be confident that you and Sam and Margot will one day be re-united with Sam in a place where cancer has no footing.

Sam loves you with all of his heart and he wants you in The Game. Bask in his wry smile and know that his wisdom is with Marg’s, Andy and Charlie and be sure to take a good dose of it yourself.

I love you.

]]> By: Kipp http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/comment-page-1/#comment-28117 Kipp Mon, 29 Mar 2010 13:20:22 +0000 http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/#comment-28117 Nothing Neil, absolutely nothing. Nothing Neil, absolutely nothing.

]]> By: Angie Dobson http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/comment-page-1/#comment-28106 Angie Dobson Mon, 29 Mar 2010 11:21:11 +0000 http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/#comment-28106 I lost a someone who was 10 in 2005 - she is with me all the time in my heart. I still find myself "thinking to her" on a regular basis, telling her what I think she would say or be thinking. They say it gets easier, but I won't say that, it just gets different. My heart does not ache any more when I think of her, it smiles when I remember what was... I have given up what could have been for the happy memories. I lost a someone who was 10 in 2005 – she is with me all the time in my heart. I still find myself “thinking to her” on a regular basis, telling her what I think she would say or be thinking. They say it gets easier, but I won’t say that, it just gets different. My heart does not ache any more when I think of her, it smiles when I remember what was… I have given up what could have been for the happy memories.

]]> By: Jodie Olsen http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/comment-page-1/#comment-28005 Jodie Olsen Sun, 28 Mar 2010 22:15:52 +0000 http://teamsam.com/blog/2010/03/28/numb-and-fun/#comment-28005 Neil, Margot, Andy and Charlie: Everytime I open up your site, that crazy red hair always gets me. Sam must have felt like the luckiest kid in the world to have you as his family. You did a lot, and more, and it will continue to radiate through the NB world. We think of you all constantly, I feel like if I were to meet you and some of the other "big" names of parents on the ACOR list that it would be like being in the presence of a celebrity. We continue to pray daily for you all, God bless your family and your "fastest angel" The Olsens Justin, Jodie, Brenna, Jordyn and London www.caringbridge.org/visit/jordynolsen Neil, Margot, Andy and Charlie:

Everytime I open up your site, that crazy red hair always gets me. Sam must have felt like the luckiest kid in the world to have you as his family. You did a lot, and more, and it will continue to radiate through the NB world. We think of you all constantly, I feel like if I were to meet you and some of the other “big” names of parents on the ACOR list that it would be like being in the presence of a celebrity. We continue to pray daily for you all, God bless your family and your “fastest angel”
The Olsens
Justin, Jodie, Brenna, Jordyn and London
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/jordynolsen

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