By Margot | March 20, 2010
Wow. Sometimes we’re not sure where to start other than to exhale and say ‘wow. The boys are doing great – they are playing and running and having fun and Sam would have loved that. Margot and I are doing ok but ok has a different meaning now. We’re both reading books on God and meaning of life trying to find answers to questions that are most probably unanswerable.
Today, we went to the SD Zoo – we have taken the kids there billions of times and going with Margot is hilarious since she knows every path, every exhibit, and every shortcut. We started off at the snakes and reptiles – Andy loves anything poisonous so he looks for the “red dots” indicating poisonous and Charlie follows him rabidly.
We meandered past the hippos and things got a bit funny. Sam’s favorite sport is soccer; his favorite animal is a cheetah; there are no cheetah’s on exhibit at SD Zoo but they keep (4) cheetah’s around to acclimate them to people. In all of our years and HUNDREDS of trips there, we have NEVER seen a cheetah. Until today.
We met Taraji, Swahili for HOPE (!). He was being shown off to passerbys to get her acclimated to people. The trainer described her as a “great soccer player” – she had been given a soccer ball at a few weeks of age and it is her favorite activity. Margot and I just looked at each other – we both think Sam is laughing at us and telling us he is ok (Ok, this update is verging on wierd, we know). Hope – Cheetah – Soccer —- crazy stuff.
But a number of things like this have happened – the day after Sam died, I went to the pharmacy to thank the pharmacist. There was only ONE guy in the store and he was in line for a script – they asked his date-of-birth and he said “7/13″ which just happens to be Sam’s birthday. He didn’t say a year; he just said 7/13. I would add more but Child Services may read this and lock us up for being crazy
We will continue to update but once again wanted to say “thanks” to the over 500 people at Sam’s Mass. That was amazing since it was 48 hours notice. Teachers, co-workers, friends, schoolmates — just amazing.
We’re proud of the eulogy – we feel we honored Sam with it.
I think of Racing in the Streets by Springsteen and how some people keep living and others die little-by-little, piece-by-piece. I guess it’s a choice you make and we need to keep making the choice to keep living and we hope to find some insight on how that happens but perhaps there’s less insight and only more effort and attention on family and love.
Andy and Charlie remind us to “stay in the game” – we’ve had close calls with the ER on both: Andy stepped on a nail that got the better of his left foot; Charlie at the zoo today ran head-down into a fire hydrant. We’re pleased to say Andy’s left foot is healing and Charlie’s injuries seem little to a bump on the head, a fat lip, and perhaps a bruise on his cheek.
PLEASE PLEASE make sure to keep Saturday April 3rd from 10:00am to noon reserved for Sam’s All-Star Party at Kate Sessions Park near the playground and swings. With faith, hope, and love of which the greatest is love…
Neil & Margot